you’ve stopped scrolling, because this single word has caught your eye. why? because you think it’s the answer to all your problems? let me tell you, it’s not. let me tell you a little story.
today, my best friend confessed to me that she wanted to take her own life. those words “i tried to kill myself last night” came down on me like a pile of bricks. i swear, my heart nearly exploded, i think i heard it for a faint second, actually. this beautiful girl that i call my best friend, the girl that i spend every day with and always has a smile on her face, she wanted to kill herself. why? that’s the question, she explained and i understood why she would feel this way. its broke my heart. but what if she did do it? what if she did get that razor and tear through her artery, or get that rope and tie it around her neck. what would i do? i’d probably do the same. i would kill myself, because i know now that i couldn’t live without this girl. i would be a mess. i cried for hours, just thinking about it. i can’t imagine my life without her. you don’t realise how many people actually car about you until you’ve gone too far. i know, it’s bullshit when people say that ‘it’s okay’ or ‘everything’s fine’ because i know it’s not. i know what it’s like to hit rock bottom. but you don’t just give up like that.
have you ever through of it? how easy it’d be? of how you could just jump out a window, or step in front of a car? Of how you could swallow all of your pills and it would all just be over? Of how you just need a way out because you cant take it anymore? If you’ve ever though about killing yourself and if you have ever felt like nobody would be there for you, like no body would care. you’re wrong. suicide is not the answer. some say it’s selfish, i disagree. i know that depression hits hard and it’s hard to get yourself out of, but if somethings broken, you don’t give up, you fix it. because you don’t know how many people that actually care for you, how much everyone will miss you if you actually go. so please, put down the razor, untie the rope. you’re so much better than that.
